The first step is always the hardest.

Well tonight I'm going to go to Jake Basketball practice and run. Yes, i said run. Unless I just feel completely stupid running with a bunch of High School boy. Thats ok if they laugh I'll just kick there butts. I just really wanna get in shape and I would like to do some running before I get on the soccer field and really kill myself. So since its winter and I can't run outside. I might as well go to the practice and let Jake yell at me to run. NO he better not do that or I'll kick his butt. But being around other people doing it to will make me wanna push myself even more. So I'll let you know just how much fun I had.

Basketball, SOCCER!!, Basketball, Basketball...........

Well, Its been a little while since I have written anything. We have been busy going to LCS basketball games and supporting the team. And the Coach I guess. :) After one of the games we went to 2 of the boys soccer game at the Bow Fieldhouse. While we were there they had a ad for a soccer clinic type thing for 3-4 year old. So of course I got wicked excited. So I ended up calling a day later and well...... we signed Kyndal up for it. We even went out and bought her some cool soccer shorts and shirt. Oh and socks with shin guards and a cool pink soccer ball just her size. She is very excited every day she say "Mommy can we go to my game?". And well we just keep counting down the days. It starts the first weekend of Feb. So almost a week. So in my mission to get into shape. I signed myself up for there Womens Open on Monday night. I'm pretty pumped myself. A bit nervous but mostly cause Im REALLY out of shape. Im not sure yet if I will be able to plat this session cause they just started on Monday, but my name is down in case a team needs another player. This is indoor soccer for those of you who where wondering how we were going to play in the snow. :) Well, that is my update on things so right now we are just trying to finish out the Basketball season. Cause I would really love to see my husband more. Its been pretty rough winter. But as soon as I can get out of this house to do something I pretty much jump all over it. Okay well I gotta go finish dinner I'm taking my time cause Jake is at practice. But I'm getting hungry and Kyndal is starting to bug me for food. Gotta go feed the chicks!!!!

Kyndal in her new soccer outfit. Taken with my phone so poor quality. The shirt doesn't look like much but its one of those sports type shirts thats really soft. Sorry I can't explain it very well.

Compare the whole FAMILY!

Ok well I just thought I would go to the next step. This is a picture collage that I made and had in a frame for our wedding reception. Why not compare all of us together. LOL :). I have nothing else to do, right???

(Should be able to click on them to make them even bigger :))



I know we are / where adorable thats why we make BEAUTIFUL BABIES!!!!!!!!

Loving Two

I walk along holding your 3-year-old hand,

basking in the glow of our magical relationship.
Suddenly I feel a kick from within,
as if to remind me that our time alone is limited.

And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?

Then she is born, and I watch you.
I watch the pain you feel at having to share me
as you've never shared me before.

I hear you telling me in your own way,
"Please love only me."
And I hear myself telling you in mine,
"I can't," knowing, in fact, that I never can again.

You cry. I cry with you.
I almost see our new baby as an intruder
on the precious relationship we once shared.
A relationship we can never quite have again.

But then, barely noticing,
I find myself attached to that new being,
and feeling almost guilty.
I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying her -
as though I am betraying you.

But then I notice your resentment change,
first to curiosity,
then to protectiveness,
finally to genuine affection.

More days pass,
and we are settling into a new routine.
The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.

But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two.
There are new times - only now, we are three.
I watch the love between you grow,
the way you look at each other, touch each other.

I watch how she adores you - as I have for so long.
I see how excited you are by each of her new accomplishments.
And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you,
I've given something to you.
I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you.

I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are,
but equally strong.
And my question is finally answered, to my amazement.
Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you - only differently.

And although I realize that you may have to share my time,
I now know you'll never share my love.
There's enough of that for both of you -
you each have your own supply.

I love you both. And I thank you both for blessing my life.

Arthur Unknown

Camera Pics

First of All I had forgotten that my brother had made Kyndal a website when she was born and i put a lot of my pics on. So i was able to get them all off of there and not have to fight with taking them off of the PC. Second looking at all of them made me REALLY appreciate our new 'high tech" :). Cause probably almost half of the photos that I had uploaded to her website where blurry. Which really sucks. So at least Ally will have nice baby pics. :)

Kyndal's website that has been kinda forgotten.

http://groups.msn.com/KyndalPaige

Comparing......

Ally at Birth.....

Kyndal at birth..... Just remeber there size difference at birth of 3 lbs. They do look alot alike. I can see Ally in more of Kyndals older pics but I'll wait till Ally gets to that age to share those. Don't wanna spoil the suprise. :)


Well this is Ally at Christmas a little before 2 months.


This is Kyndal not sure exactly when but around the same time. Probably a little older. LOL Ally has the same pants on today as Kyndal does in the picture.

First set of Shots.

Well Ally had her first set of shots today. She did not like them at all. It was a really pathetic cry. One of those where you just wanna hold them cause its like they are just whimpering. I never know weather to cry or smile. Cause its kinda cute. Maybe I smile to keep from crying, thats it. But anyway she survived. She is now 11 lbs 1 ounce. and 23 inches. And well we played around a bit and Kyndal is 38 lbs and 41 inches. Just thought I do some comparing. Maybe tomorrow I will follow in Kristins footsteps and compare by pics. that means i have to find some of Kyndal most of hers where on our old computer and they are still there. But if I have one I'll have to scan it. So I'll see what i can come up with. Fun project!!!!

A New Year a New Start

Well after a nice night out with the hubby. We have now be dragged back to the everyday jobs of life. :) Today we officially started on our diet. Hey its the new year doesn't everyone diet, for at least a little bit. But seriously, we really are doing it. Our diet of choice is South Beach. All I want is for the mountains of snow to be gone so I can get back out side and walk. I would rather bust my butt in working out that diet. I have a big goal ahead of me. First I wanna get back to where I was before Ally, than back to where I was before Kyndal, than back to where I was when Jake and I got married and then, why not, back to where I was when we where dating. So My goal are big that about a total of, I hate to say it but, 70 pound. Wow thats what life, marriage, BC, and 2 kids will do. Here is my now pic and my about 6 years ago/ after my diet, i hope, pic. LOL :) Wish me luck!!!!